A Word of Caution from Yahweh via Yirmayahu
Again the word of the Lord came to me, saying, “Son of man, speak to the children of your people, and say to them: ‘When I bring the sword upon a land, and the people of the land take a man from their territory and make him their watchman, when he sees the sword coming upon the land, if he blows the trumpet and warns the people, then whoever hears the sound of the trumpet and does not take warning, if the sword comes and takes him away, his blood shall be on his own head. He heard the sound of the trumpet, but did not take warning; his blood shall be upon himself. But he who takes warning will save his life. But if the watchman sees the sword coming and does not blow the trumpet, and the people are not warned, and the sword comes and takes any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood I will require at the watchman’s hand.’
Dear Brothers and Sisters in Yeshua Ha Mashiach,
Today I’m faced with a very difficult task, one that I am hesitant to perform, but one, that if it is not performed could allow harm to befall the souls both saved and the unsaved. To perform this duty could make some feel that I am judgmental, and giving the circumstances that have played out between myself and the person in question, could cause some to think that I’m performing a vendetta against this person. I feel compelled to the highest degree to inform you about someone who has gone through great pains to ruin the ministry that Yahweh has given to me as well as my reputation and the reputations of some who I consider good friends, brothers and sisters as well as fellow researchers. With all of that said, it still makes me sad that I have to proceed with this warning. I would like you to be aware that, just as scripture dictates, I submitted this word to four other watchmen for approval and/or reproof should they have deemed it necessary. These were three men and one woman who all certified that this word of caution is published on my website without any malice and with the best interest of the community of Believers in Yeshua at large, and the person whom you are being warned about.
I ask that you understand that if left to my own devices, I would run from this task like Yonah ran from his obligation to speak to the people of Nineveh. I have been given the office of a watchman, a prophet if you wish, and if you knew my personality and my apprehensions about being confrontational you would understand that I would rather do anything other than what Yahweh is compelling me to do. I hope and pray with all earnest that you will understand that my heart struggles in having to do this thing. I also hope and pray that you understand that I have prayed for years for the person in whom I have been charged in revealing to you this day. I have painstakingly forgiven this person over the years and have made great strides in reaching out to them in the Spirit of Christian love and fellowship, but to no avail. I have sat idly as this person has defamed me and brought all manner of false accusation against me and some fellow Christian researchers. For years Yahweh has told me to sit by and let them sling their stones at me, and He has been faithful to preserve me through these attacks and He has been my strong tower against those who have set themselves against me. In my flesh, I would have retaliated long ago and could have done so in such a way as to put this person to shame, but I would not and could not bring myself to do such a thing because Yahweh told me not to, plus it would have made me appear to be just as devious and malevolent as this person has been toward me. To be frank, I have been placed in a very difficult position. Do I keep my mouth shut and ignore what is a clear and present danger to what could be many people, to again turn the other cheek; or do I take serious my anointing to be a watchman on the city wall and warn everyone I can about this danger. I am compelled to do the latter.
About a week ago I received a letter from one Nicole Malone. You may know her as her pseudonym, Paradox Brown. I was hesitant to open the e-mail because her writings in the past have always been sickly sweet combined with a jugular cutting tone that was always hurtful; full of accusatory tones and hardly ever conciliatory. When I saw the email header in my email inbox my reaction was, “oh no, now what?” Her letters have always started out with a soft tone, almost too soft but followed with tones and accusations that made me feel like a multiple stabbing victim and then she would end her letters with a gentle, “have a nice day” sort of approach. It was as if two different people were writing the letter and I often wondered if there were two personalities writing for her.
Remind them of these things, charging them before the Lord not to strive about words to no profit, to the ruin of the hearers. Be diligent to present yourself approved to God, a worker who does not need to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. But shun profane and idle babblings, for they will increase to more ungodliness. And their message will spread like cancer. Hymenaeus and Philetus are of this sort, who have strayed concerning the truth, saying that the resurrection is already past; and they overthrow the faith of some. Nevertheless the solid foundation of God stands, having this seal: “The Lord knows those who are His,” and, “Let everyone who names the name of Christ depart from iniquity.” 2 Timothy 2:14-19
A major concern over these past few years is that Nicole has taken on the task of teaching Bible studies and counseling people who are seeking help in the area of alien abduction, or as we know it to be, paranormal harassment. Because of what they have been through, some of these victims also suffer from stress disorders and/or psychiatric conditions. I have always been concerned that a newborn Christian, less than four years in the faith at the time would thrust herself into such things when normally believers spend the first five or more years in classes as students, not teachers. This does not fit the scriptural model of being in discipleship under an elder until the elder felt that the student was qualified to become a teacher or counselor. There is a natural progression to the ways of our faith that were not being followed in the case of Nicole and her supposed ministry.
And He spoke a parable to them: “Can the blind lead the blind? Will they not both fall into the ditch? A disciple is not above his teacher, but everyone who is perfectly trained will be like his teacher. Luke 6:39-40
My brethren, let not many of you become teachers, knowing that we shall receive a stricter judgment. For we all stumble in many things. If anyone does not stumble in word, he is a perfect man, able also to bridle the whole body. James 3:1-2
You see, even Yeshua said that a person has to be a disciple and have a teacher, and once he or she is trained to be like their teacher then they can be a teacher. Nicole has never sat as a disciple. This, along with her seemingly spiteful demeanor, greatly concerned a few of us, and was addressed but our concerns went unheeded by Nicole and those who support her. Too, scripture is quite clear that teachers are held to a higher standard like we saw in James. Yes we do all err, but we who err and are able to accept correction, repent and recant are a model to every student. A person who researches so that they can teach, yet will not yield to being told that their doctrine might be wrong is in a very dangerous place both for themselves and those that they are teaching.
So after years of abuse from Nicole and her minions I was very surprised to get the following letter in my e-mail. This mail was sent out, not only to me, but to several other researchers. The letter comprised a shallow apology for her behavior, blaming her actions on a condition known as Asperger’s Syndrome. I will first post her letter, here in this document, then I will post the signs of Asperger’s Syndrome and then I will express my concerns as to why Nicole has no business teaching or counseling anyone about anything, and how anyone who desires to learn sound doctrine and/or get sound counseling should in no way seek her out for these things.
Here is her letter to me and others:
I wanted to tell you all I just found out I have Asperger’s Syndrome, or high functioning autism, after seeing a licensed psychologist about some issues I was having. And so, I want to apologize to anyone who I have confused to think I once had “mild” MPD, myself being confused for several years now, having attempted to diagnose myself, and then believing my own misdiagnosis, repeating this self-delusion to others at times. And I thought I’d include in this mailing some who may have picked this misconception up from other past mass emails (mine or others). I have always tried to state to people that this “mild” case was just a self-diagnosis, not from a doctor, lacking in certain aspects. But I came to believe it myself for a while there, and that surely has confused some people. I am sorry. While this is a private note, I did a public article which explains this confusion:
Coming Out About Asperger’s, and Making a Public Apology
It is a great blessing to me to find out I have Asperger’s. But hard, to come to realize my behavior at times has been misunderstood, and not knowing I had this, I have been wrong about some things. I have not realized some things I’ve done were unusual, not knowing I had this, thinking I was normal. People who write about me, such as Jim, Dave, or Dante could tell you, but also those who have liked me or been friends, have all noted the same unusual behaviors from me – really long emails, long emails with a strong narrow focus on some issue or problem, emotionality, oversharing at times, black and white thinking, probably what has come across as at least insensitivity at times to other people’s feelings or social norms, and a quick tendency to pull out Matt 18 to try to resolve conflicts – that has even resulted in accusations of me ‘bullying’ people. This has all been symptomatic of having Asperger’s and not knowing it, the verbosity, unintentional lack of sensitivity to people’s feelings… and I really feel bad if I have been out of line and hurt anyone’s feelings. Though I think there’s just been alot of misunderstanding of my intent at times.
One thing I’m sure I have done wrong, is I’ve had a longstanding highly literal misunderstanding of Matt 18, which was recently corrected (I did not realize verse 22 parallels verse 15), I have been sincerely confused on that for years, whether with those who dislike me or friends, I have been quick to follow the instructions in Matt 18 thinking God would move to fix problems that way. I did want to say this has not been intentionally harsh on my part, and I am sorry to those I’ve ever started a Matt 18 process with, such as Jim, Dave, Dante, and several others who I would guess would like to remain nameless. I am sorry, I was misreading the passage. In fact this has never been a matter of hate or harshness, I’ve done the same thing with friends, people I love, problematically, which is part of what led into me finding this out.
I also want to apologize for any seemingly unusual insensitivity or hurting anyone’s feelings. It’s not been intentional, I don’t desire to be unloving with anyone, quite the opposite in fact, I’m big on love, and I do feel bad if I have hurt anyone’s feelings. But I truly don’t see the world the way others do and it apparently leads to misunderstanding of my intent at times – that’s a main diagnostic criteria right there. God knows if/where I or others have been out of line, but I’m sorry if I have been, and have confused or hurt anyone – if nothing else I think there has been misunderstanding between me and others over this.
So, this is not an admission I’ve been wrong about everything I’ve ever said or done, or my doctrinal views – but I did want to offer some apologies, and an apologetic explanation for some things I now realize have at least contributed into various conflicts or misunderstandings over the past 5 years, with various people, that I wanted you all to know about. I’m already working on this with the Lord, hoping to become better adjusted, and it’s already been a huge relief. Thank you to everyone and anyone whose prayed for me over the past few years, I really do appreciate it.
Some of you might find fault in that I published what Nicole called a private letter. I feel that it is necessary to publish her letter because it shows without a doubt that in her own words that her judgments have been clouded and that her actions have been inappropriate. She states that this condition causes a person to not be able to think correctly and even made mention that for a while she thought that perhaps she had Multiple Personality Disorder. By her own admission she has shown that she is the polar opposite of the kind of personality that is loving and caring enough to counsel with wisdom and empathy and by her own admission she has made it quite clear that she cannot discern issues with a clear and impartial mind; hardly the sort of person that should teach or counsel. Now I will post my reply to her. It is only fair that you see how I answered her:
Thank you for writing. I hope and pray that things go well for you. Please forgive me for what I’m about to say, but after being your whipping post ever since we met it is hard to determine whether this is for real or if this is just another attempt to lull me into a sense of security, only to have you pounce and attack again. I truly do hope that you have sought out help and that you are getting it, and if true, then Hallel Yahweh.
I still am a bit skeptical Nicole because your letter seems to go well to explain (perhaps) why you do what you do, but it seems sort of hollow and not really an apology at all, but a way to get out of the mistakes you have made. The last paragraph cinched it for me in that you create a caveat for your actions and refuse to recant some of your actions which when directed in my direction and in the direction of Jim have always been focused on doctrine and how you feel that our doctrine is heresy, maligned with the Word of God and/or just plain stupid. Do you see Nicole, your doctrine has been the cause for contention; not that any of us has attacked you at first, but that you attacked first and then became incensed when called out on the carpet to question your doctrine. You say that you’re sorry, but you still have your article about Jim being a heretic on the internet? How sorry are you? Not very sorry as far as I can see.
The thing now Nicole is that you’ve admitted that you have a psychiatric condition you are not, nor have you been a good candidate for counseling people, nor should you have ever been teaching people anything. By the admission of your letter, you cannot think clearly nor process things clearly and that makes you a danger where the teaching and counseling of others is concerned. Everything you’ve done has been out of emotion and if you’re honest, you’ll admit that research, whether Biblical or scientific cannot be clearly conducted through emotion. If you are serious and honest about this whole Asperger’s aspect of your life and character then you need to immediately get out of ministry. How long? Well perhaps forever or for a long time, perhaps years. I’ve read up on this condition and there is no cure except for the touch of Yahweh’s hand. You need to cease everything in ministry, to do otherwise you present a danger to others. You need to see if your doctrine is based on the truth or on what your condition caused you to proclaim. You should pull down everything from the internet until you can determine, and other non-biased people can determine whether your doctrine is scripturally sound and Biblically based.
If you do these things then I will lean toward the notion that you are perhaps serious and that the condition you described is for real. If not, I will just deduce that the letter that you sent to me, and to others is just another conniving attempt to get yourself out of hot water and justify your actions and/or to further your delusions. Also, it would be more correct if you were to write to every person that you have wronged and, in detail mention where you were wrong, say you are sorry and then ask for forgiveness. A blanket letter filled with vagueness doesn’t seem right and makes it seem like you’re shallow and unrepentant.
Hope it all works out for you.
To some it may appear that my answer to Nicole was harsh and unforgiving, but that is not so. As I mentioned earlier, I’ve received various types of letters from Nicole, some where she seemed repentant but she would always slip into malevolence. As the saying goes, “fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.” So while I hope that things will get better I have many remembrances of bizarre and twisted texts to me where I was dope slapped, so I’m a bit Nicole Shy when it comes to trusting this woman.
What I found interesting about her letter is that although she makes a shallow apology to many of us she refuses to acknowledge that her doctrine could be flawed. What she described as her condition, and from what is written about Asperger’s on some Asperger support sites, they are only able to focus on one thing and one thing only. Trying to focus on multiple things frustrates those with Asperger’s yet a look at Nicole’s studies and her slanders of other researchers shows that she has tried to focus on many things and excel in knowledge of those many things; something that autistic people just cannot do effectively. So to say that she will not even budge on her doctrines and beliefs doesn’t sound repentant to me, but the opposite, obstinate, prideful and unbending. If you followed the link that she provided in her letter it is basically a mirror of her letter to me and the others. In that letter however, she mentions that she is not going to change her doctrine. She announces that she has been rated as a “genius” and suggests that her intelligence qualifies her to continue to research and teach. Unfortunate for her, and others who might sit under her tutorage the understanding of scripture, its implementation and its teachings are all multifaceted in nature, like a multilayered truth and as you will see from the description of those with Asperger’s Syndrome, the truths cannot be understood by someone suffering from this condition; nor do they have the capability to show empathy which is a must when teaching, counseling and even researching the Holy Writ.
Be diligent to present yourself approved to God, a worker who does not need to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 2 Timothy 2:15
I advised Nicole in my letter to her that she should get out of ministry, specifically counseling and teaching, perhaps forever. I also told her that a sign that she could be conciliatory toward those that she hurt would be to take down the malicious lies that she has posted about Jim Wilhelmsen. A search of her website shows that she has not heeded my advice nor my challenge to prove herself as being genuinely sorry and apologetic. (see symptom 7)
I did a bit of research on Asperger’s Syndrome and found that most of those with her condition exhibit the following symptoms:
Asperger syndrome in adults has some common characteristics such as:
- Lack of managing appropriate social conduct
- High intelligence
- Anger management problems
- Controlling feelings such as depression, fear or anxiety
- Lack of empathy
- Inability to listen to others
- Inflexible thinking
- Repetitive routines provides feelings of security
- Stress when their routine suddenly changes
- Inability to think in abstract ways
- Specialised fields of interest
- Visual thinking
You see dear brothers and sisters, almost all of the symptoms listed above are detrimental to those who wish to minister to others, teach others and counsel others. Nicole has demonstrated to many of us through her behavior that she is a brilliant person, probably a genius, which she proudly proclaims in her public apology, but if she is unable to be corrected for flawed doctrinal views and takes the “it’s my way or the highway” attitude then she is primed to be the sort of person who will create her own doctrine and rebuff any attempts to show her where she’s wrong. I’ve seen that many times.
Likewise, exhort the young men to be sober-minded, in all things showing yourself to be a pattern of good works; in doctrine showing integrity, reverence, incorruptibility, sound speech that cannot be condemned, that one who is an opponent may be ashamed, having nothing evil to say of you. Titus 2:6-8
In the Greek, to be sound minded means to be in one’s right mind, to exercise self control, to put a moderate estimate upon one’s self, to think of one’s self soberly and to curb one’s passions. Again, these are things that Asperger’s Syndrome affected people have a hard time doing.
She is not the sort of person that should research Biblical data because biblical data isn’t always black and white. We all know that scripture is used by the Holy Spirit and He tailors it to meet different situational motifs and that goes against what the Asperger’s patient can accept. You cannot counsel if you lack empathy (compassion) and you have an inability to listen to others, nor can you teach if Asperger’s traits are present.
Finally, be ye all of one mind, having compassion one of another, love as brethren, be pitiful, be courteous:1 Peter 3:8
For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. Hebrews 4:12
Yahweh tells us that His Word is quite complex, very deep and intricate and He’s said in other places of scripture that He could not be fully known. For Nicole to say that she can know the things of Yahweh because she has a “genius” intelligence quotient is quite a bold statement and would seem to discount her need for the Holy Spirit, without whom the rest of us can barely scratch the surface of knowing Yahweh, although He teaches us constantly how to know Him through His Spirit’s revelation of His Word.
I want to make it so very clear that I do not have it out for Nicole Malone. I am not saying that she is not a believer in Yeshua and I am not saying that she is not saved by the Blood of our Yahweh Yeshua. While I dislike very much the things that she has done to me and the things that she has said to me I do forgive her. I bless her life and pray that she gets things worked out with Yahweh’s help and touch. Should she someday decide to get into some method of works to further the Kingdom of Yahweh, and it is a work that her Asperger’s Syndrome would not impede her in then I will gladly bless that work. However, I will again categorically state that research, teaching and counseling is not on the list of valid works for Nicole.
It is my hope and prayer that someday Nicole will realize that what I’ve said is true, but she would have to be a flexible thinker with the ability to listen to what I have told her, both skills that she admits that she cannot utilize because she does not possess them. A few years ago, when Nicole had proclaimed a short term cease fire I tried to minister to her. Yahweh told me to tell her to sit at His feet, just like the account in Scripture where Mary sat at Yeshua’s feet, loved Him and learned from Him. This would have done her wonders and although she agreed to do what was suggested it did not last and she slid back into open warfare against me. I don’t see her as being teachable or willing to received what Yahweh thinks is best for her. I’ve prayed long and hard about all of this, and saw her letter as encouraging, until I read the last paragraph and saw that she wasn’t bearing any fruit of repentance or restoration with those whom she has hurt.
Therefore, it is my duty to warn people by saying that if Nicole Malone offers to teach you anything or if she offers to counsel you about anything that it is probably a good idea that you seek another person, and a person that is not under her influence either. If you read her doctrine then please take what she says with a grain of salt or better yet, seek out others for correct doctrine. She knows what the problem is, and what she needs to do to correct the damage that she has done, yet seems unwilling and even adamant that she will not try to fix the damage that she has done. By her own admission she is a very intelligent person with a syndrome that makes her lack empathy, not listen to others, with anger management problems and lacks appropriate social skills; plus, she has never sat as a disciple to learn from an elder about the faith that she tutors others on.
If you fault me for writing this warning then let me remind you that there are people like myself that are commissioned to be watchmen on the wall; people who, when they observe danger coming, are required by their calling to warn those within the wall of that clear and present danger. While I do not say that Nicole Malone is dangerous in a physical sense, I do know without one shred of doubt that there is danger in false teaching and false doctrine. If I warned you that someone was about to harm you physically you would probably be thankful. If I told you that the stock options that you had were going to crash and I saved your nest egg you would be happy. Now I warn you that you could receive false doctrine and/or teaching that could put you in spiritual peril and lead you to an unfruitful life; I hope that you would be happy about this warning too. I do know that I have personally experienced the volleys of her arrows and I know what she is capable of when she has her mind set on destroying a person. Experience is a great teacher. Having learned from experience and now having written confirmation that there is a problem that causes Nicole to be all of the things listed in the list above, that when I cry danger from the city wall there is a clear and present danger. I know that it is my responsibility and that of others with the same calling to do what we feel Yahweh is calling us to do and to warn others of that danger. If I am wrong then Yahweh will judge me, but after much prayer and much circumspect thought I feel comfortable posting this warning and I feel that I have accomplished what Yahweh set me out to do.