You know, I’ve done a lot in my life that under other circumstances I would have gotten recognition from the world and even many believers in Yeshua, but Yahweh has been faithful to let me look like a failure to the world. I’ve come up with some pretty good ideas that others have taken and capitalized on and I’ve published other things given to me by Yahweh that other have taken and published under their own name. This should get me roaring mad but it doesn’t. For, you see, I ascribe ideas and thoughts that are beneficial as coming from Yahweh so they really belong to Him, and not me. Anger against such things would be the anger of a mad plaguerist.
On this road of life and the road of ministry (they should be the same road if you’re walking with Yahweh) we encounter so very many types of people. Some people have no faith while others have what looks like a mountain of faith. Some people have the personality of a viper while others are like little lambs. Some are gifted in taking your money in any way possible while others scrimp and scrape by earning a meager existance. And, of course there are myriads of people that fall within the the extremes that I’ve just mentioned.
We will rejoice in thy salvation, and in the name of our God we will set up our banners: the Lord fulfil all thy petitions. Now know I that the Lord saveth his anointed; he will hear him from his holy heaven with the saving strength of his right hand. Some trust in chariots, and some in horses: but we will remember the name of the Lord our God. They are brought down and fallen: but we are risen, and stand upright. Save, Lord: let the king hear us when we call. Psalm 20:5-9
The sum total of what we are and who we are in Yeshua is “who do you trust?” Who are you willing to put your stock in when things get rough and who will you trust to make you a success? The seductions of this world are so very present and so very tempting. I’ve had people write to me expressing a desire to support me and our ministry and they seemed pretty compelling. However, I have investigated those people and I have to say that with the exception of two men, all others wanted to help because they could somehow worm their way into the ministry to be able to change the course of the ministry or to downright take it over. The two brothers who are sincere have become friends as well as supporters and have not only contributed financially to the cause, but have been there to lend an ear and voice of support and to offer advice and constructive criticism when needed.
A few years ago Yahweh gave me a dream where he showed me something that I am sort of afraid to share the interpretation thereof. I am afraid because some reading this are not kind people and they will automatically ascribe to this interpretation that I am prideful or feel that I ascribe some sort of special anointing to myself. I cannot anoint myself, so that thought is ridiculous and also, Yahweh has seemed to make me His special project when it comes to keeping me humble and contrite. Most of you have been under the shadow of His wings whereas I have been shut up in the cleft of the rock, so to speak. He has quashed every attempt by me to become prideful and what the world calls successful; and I do not exagerate nor do I bewail it either.
In the dream I was with an associate and others. All of us were in a very high hotel on the top floor, probably the penthouse suite of something like that. I remember looking over the side and seeing that the part of the building we were in was out farther than the other parts of the building; sort of like the horizontal part of the letter “t” hangs out over the vertical part of the letter. I was looking down over the edge to see if there was an escape route for us but the shape of the building made that impossible; plus the hight of the building was very great. We were trapped on the top floor and we knew that the FBI was looking for us and that they had the hotel surrounded and they were on every floor.
We finally decided that we should give up and surrender to the FBI. Someone opened the door and the agents swarmed in. We were escorted by the FBI down a stairwell to one of the floors where everyone but me was handcuffed. This particular floor didn’t look like a hotel floor because the floors were all tiled and the walls were white, almost like a hospital setting. As we walked I put my hands behind my back so that the officer could handcuff me whereupon he told me he would handcuff me after he went to the bathroom. He and another angent went into the bathroom and left me alone out in the doorway. I can remember seeing the others being led toward the edge of the hallway, all in handcuffs and then I saw them no more. I was all by myself in the hallway. I waited for the agents to come out of the bathroom and contemplated that I should make an escape but at the same time I felt that I didn’t need to escape. So, I waited for a while longer and started to walk down the hallway by myself and at this part of the dream I woke up.
Image from ca.finance.yahoo.com
Image similar to the building in my dream except the cross tee was up at the top.
I asked Yahweh what this dream meant because for a while I was confused as to its meaning. It came to me that the dream meant that I would be separated from the current associate and others in the “Christian” UFO research field. This was to occur because whatever is finally going to happen to the other researchers I would not have to partake in. I was not going to be led away in shakels like the others. The FBI agents symbolized Yahweh’s angels and the handcuffs symbolized the bondage of pride. Yahweh wanted me to know that the bondage that the others are bound in won’t bind me and that Yahweh was allowing me to be free so that I can fulfill the will that he has for me in my life. The fact that the angels brought us down from the highest floor symbolized the loftiness that many Christians in the UFO field happen to feel will cause them to be brought low and the fact that the floor that I was left on was like a hospital means that I will be free to minister to the sick (those needing spiritual health and salvation).
This dream was given to me on March 07, 2009 which is about the time that I could have compromised my position and come into the limelight of the Christian UFO Research Realm. The previous July, I had spoken in Roswell at a UFO conference and I had just submitted my book for publication. I was rising to the top and the potential for pride was present for sure.
The book never did take off. Some say it was because it was too long; other say that it was written before its time. Some even said that it wasn’t well written. I think that Yahweh didn’t want it to take off at present because it was written before its time and because low sales would keep me humble. I also think that it was in part to the contributer, Joe Jordan’s attempt to steal the rights and credit and people’s dislike for that man. Only Yahweh knows for sure and someday I will know the whole story.
Back in the late 1980’s I was hurt in an industrial accident and became unable to work. Before the accident I was making well over thirty dollars per hour and single, and I was enjoying life and living the life of Riley. I can’t say I was high on the hog, for obvious reasons. There were others who were hurt also and everyone hired one law firm out of San Francisco. They were known for getting results, so we went with them because we wanted to see some sort of return after being out of work for an extended period of time. In 1991 we all received our settlements and it was a pretty good amount. In what seemed like overnight I was a changed man with enough money to keep me happy for a while and/or for life had I invested it right. Yahweh saw how the money changed me and within two year’s time all of the money was gone. Many of the things that I had acquired with the money were also gone and within five years of getting the award I was filing for bankruptcy. Clearly, I was not meant to have money, or at least that much money at the young age of 32. In addition to the monetary downward spiral came a similar spiral of my walk with Yeshua. Sadly, I was trying to serve God and Mammon. Let me testify to you, you cannot serve two masters. Yahweh was gracious to destroy the other master so that I again had to turn to him.
So you see that when I say that Yahweh doesn’t want me to have anything that could cause me to go off course it has been born out in my life that this tesimony is true. This is also true when it comes to fame, fortune or anything that will pull my attention away from him.
We now have to turn back to the dream that I inserted earlier in this Journal entry. Yahweh had seen that there was a possiblity of my becoming absorbed in a worldly aspect of ministry rather than a Godly aspect of ministry. I had noticed as early as 2005 that there were some very worldly people who called themselves “Christians,” who were involved in the Christian UFO Research Community. If Yahweh has endowed you with discernment you can see this quite easily. The real believers are humble, contrite and the air that they come across with is that of humility. They are rare indeed inside of this community. The others are the ones who seem to prosper. They write book upon book and speak at conference upon conference and they sort of ooze with pride and self edification. Even when they try to act humble the ooze of pride always makes itself present to reveal who they are.
What many people don’t know is that these same prideful men and women often get their rise in popularity through unsavory means. For instance, a collegue of mine has had his ideas constantly ripped off by other authors and entities. He has read his own ideas in books and publications written by people whom he thought he could trust. Many times he would be on phone calls with these plagueristic people and he would express an idea only to find it in their newsletter a month or two later. His own book was even pirated by someone who has offered it at a reduced rate and sold hundreds if not thousands of copies. Having had these things happen to me, I can attest that it causes sadness that people who claim to walk under the same banner, the banner of Yeshua, could do such things. In another vein, there are those who offer to publish the work of believers and steal away the work. Such people offer to front the cost of publication because they think that your work is important yet they do not fulfil the work of a publisher. They halfheartedly promote and then quickly drop your work because they see another school of bait in the water that they think will bring them money. They leave your work in limbo and when it fails they drop you like a bare handed man drops an iron skilled right off the fire. Yes, there are snakes in Christian publishing that masquerade as honest and caring believers.
As I mentioned earlier, I started to see these things early in the research community. The stench of dead Christianity can often be masked by those who are dead, but to those whom Yahweh has given a discerning nose the use of air freshener will never hide death and decay from them. Right from the start I had been given the intuition of who to hang out with and who was not right. Admittedly I was hoodwinked by a master masker for a short time but even this man showed his true colors sort of early on.
In the dream I had been alone and alone is not a fun place to be. Sometimes I would start to wonder if I was being too judgmental or perhaps if my discernment was off. Surely there could not be 98 percent bad and only two percent good? Yahweh however showed over the years how this was indeed true and how even the best of those in the masquerade were tainted. The dream was bearing out to be true; I was the only one in that great company who would not walk away in the shackles of disrepute.
As one would often think, I wondered if perhaps I’m paranoid about all of this. Even though I had the dream and things seemed pretty apparent to me, I often wondered if I was being influenced by the dream or I was seeing things like I wanted to see them. These speculations soon came to an end when I started to receive emails from people who liked my ministry. They would send me questions, asking me about certain individuals. I would get questions asking me if I had noticed that certain people didn’t seem just quite right, and other such things. I then began to see that I wasn’t imagining things, or at the very least, if I was delusional, other people suffered from the same delusion. But the one thing that stood out plain was the dream. It was as if Yahweh was sending me the letters from these people to confirm that what I was seeing was indeed the truth. Yahweh if faithful to give us confirmation; this has always been the case with him speaking to me anyway.
Yahweh said that we would know people by the fruit that they bear:
For a good tree bringeth not forth corrupt fruit; neither doth a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. For every tree is known by his own fruit. For of thorns men do not gather figs, nor of a bramble bush gather they grapes. A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh. Luke 6:43-45
Yeshua tells us here that you’ll know people by what they do, what they say and what comes from the things that they are trying to do. Yahweh has built a check valve into evil people so that they will always reveal what they are doing. Evil people always show you their cards. It is astonishing, but it always seems that the evil always show their plans. The trick is that you have to be listening so that you can hear them tip you off. So called “Christians” who work evil are no different. They will always slip or even brag about what they are doing; they cannot avoid the check valve, so to speak. And, because they tip us off it is important to hear what they are saying so that we can rebuke them, and if need be flee from the very appearance of evil.
The essence of all of this is that I cannot and will not league myself with people who are not fully committed to serving Yahweh and loving Yeshua. We’re told many times in scripture that we’re not supposed to be unequally yoked in anything; relationships, friendships, business adventures and especially in ministry. We’re told in word and through stories in scripture what the end result of these sort of unions will be. We’re told that the only one who will not fail us; the only one who has our best interest at heart and the only one who will be there through thick and thin is Yeshua. I’ve known him for well over thirty years and He has never failed me. In times when I thought that he was far away it was my eyesight that faltered because He has always been by my side. When people have tried to destroy the ministry that Yahweh commissioned me to do, Yeshua was always there to turn the tables on those people and protect the integrity of ministry and my walk; both of which are in Him.
So no, I will not league with people lacking integrity and lacking full contact relationship with Yahweh through Yeshua. If and when I find such people in my company they will be alerted to their lack of integrity. If they repent and return to Yahweh then praise Yeshua. If they continue on in their prideful ways then I will end association with them. Time is short and the enemy desires to steal people away into the the great delusion. I cannot and will not be part of that delusion no matter how sweet the agents of darkness make the pot and no matter how much they say I can prosper by joining with them. So, let the researchers prosper. Let them find fame and fortune and let them compromise in order to usurp Yahweh’s plan for them. I’ll have no part of it. What does it profit a man if he should gain the whole world but forfeit his soul? Hopefully, I’ll never find out the answer to that question, and I pray that you my reading faithful never do either!