HELP ME TO UNDERSTAND YOU
I try to understand you,
To see into the depths of your infinite wisdom.
Confusion swirls within my mind,
My wisdom seems as a drop of water in an endless sea.
Like a single atom compared to all the vastness of the universe.
My mouth parched with thirst in want of knowing your plans for me.
Just a simple glimpse would suffice.
So many signs point this way or that,
Vast confusion on the highway that is my life.
Advice from friends and loved ones obscure the issue,
Two point to the left, while three point to the right.
So I ask you to reveal your purpose, I promise to watch and listen.
And I know that you are faithful to show me the right direction,
But again I encounter confusing signs.
So in desperation I again seek your face to know your will,
Face down on the floor, speaking in unknown tongues.
Visions you show me, dreams you reveal to me,
A map to show the way, to chart my course.
I should be happy, for I know the way,
My rudder is set and the wind is again in my sails,
But I hear things that still make me doubt.
And a confession I must certainly make – my mind is at war,
It battles against what it knows to be true,
Trying to root up what you have planted in its fertile ground.
My soul, once a place of peaceful bliss,
Now a battle ground, a place of horrible carnage, my mind is wounded,
A spiritual battle which ensues on tangible property.
O’ Yahweh, come fight this battle with me.
Pursue and route the merciless and vengeful enemy.
Cut them to pieces with your holy sword,
Pursue those who pursue me and utterly destroy them.
Bring their plans to ruin and make them a laughingstock,
And avenge me ten times toward them, all of them.
Make your purpose for my life to prosper,
Make it grow like a tree near the banks of the Jordan.
Cause my life to produce bountiful fruit,
Luscious fruit that will satisfy you,
That will feed anyone who might be in need.
Plant your thoughts and your ways firmly and unshakably in my mind,
And grow my faith so that I can trust you all the more.
All things happen in your time – this is so true.
But let the timing for the desires of my heart be here and now,
Delay not one more day – not one more hour.
Work, through your holiness and your majesty,
Intervene in time in space – work a miracle.
In so, both of us will yet be certain,
That He that dwells in the midst of us is holy.
Copyright 5/6/06 Holy Spirit via David Ben Yakov